Met a new girl

So its been 3.5 months since I broke up with the ex...I finally met a girl that I think could be a good one. She's 27 so close to my age...seems to be easy going, caring, and has good morals. I'm kinda excited.

I ended the relationship Today

For all of those who were wondering how the story ends..It's OVER!

Rainy Days Make Me Think About D

Today was kinda a sucky day all around...rainy freezing cold, windy....just sucked here. Well today We texted back and forth nothing major going on in our relationship...sometimes when you just sit back and think about things after a seperation...you or at least I tend to think...Is this relationship going to be stuck right where it is at at this moment...or will there ever be a future?>?! It's so hard to try and determine what is in the other person's head and what are they thinking...Am I mister right now...or do they really mean it when they say...They love you and want to marry you?! Who knows...it stresses me out so much I just try to forget about it all together. Hope all is well with everyone else today. Its getting so close to christmas....I tell you what single at christmas doesnt suck.

one day at a time

Today was a pretty good day. We didnt talk to much at all. Ive been kinda sick and I guess she says she is not feeling good now as well. I did go over to her house tonight and help her kids fix the computer and stuff...so me and the girls had fun...mom was asleep in bed cause she gets up to work really early in the mornings. I don't know how others feel but I feel like its worth the effort.

Taking it one step at a time

So yeah it's been a minute since my last post and I appologize. Between work and sleep I haven't had to much time lately. Me and the lady have been talking and trying to work things out. We are just taking things slowly and working on trying to treat each other better....mostly her treating me better HAHA! Yesterday evening we went to look at this house that must have a million lights hanging from it and around the yard. It was incredible. Then we went to a local christmas tree lane. I have to admit we had a good time and it was nice to hang out.

Its always hard going against the grain. Most people would tell me to move on...She sucks...You can do better. It seems as if that is the american way now days to just bail when you are going through a tough stage in life,work, love, and marriage. Ladies I want to say that it is important to take care of the man you love and treat him with respect and thankfulness, if he is a good man. So often it's easy to tear apart people and point out our loved ones faults. No good can come from this. I guarantee that if you lift up the one you love and give him respect and be thankful for what he has provided nothing but good will come from it and together you will be more successful for it. I can tell you that if the woman I love has my back...It energizes me to do so much better in life. It's true for every man. We need that respect and in turn we will start giving it back.

Says she loves me!

So just because someone says that they love you does it really mean that they love you? Sometimes I feel as if her actions aren't showing love...but the more I talk to people the more I hear about people saying they have married to others that are the same way...just don't share their feelings all that much and don't offer displays of affection. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it hard or something you just get used to....can it still mean they love you just don't know how to show it?

Back talking again!!

So you are probably wondering where I have been for a few days. Well between work since I am self employed and taking care of chores around the house...THE GF and I are back to talking terms again and so far things are going good.

We have at least sat down together and talked about our feelings and what we both want and expect from each other.

After spending a few days of soul searching by myself...I have come to maybe think that I might be some of the problem.

I tend to do a lot for friends and family and I kind of have a tendency to throw things in people's face without even thinking.

For instance a good friend of mine , I had helped her obtain a free gym membership through one of my other close friends. One day she was upset at me and called me a SHITTY friend. I couldn't believe that I was called that by her. After all I always came and helped do things...we didnt talk every day but I had arrived late to her sons birthday and she was upset with me. At the time I was kind of cash poor and wasnt able to get her son a gift so I felt bad and didnt want to let her know that was the reason why....so after a couple weeks of her and I not talking I was trying to get ahold of her. She wasn't returning phone calls...I assumed she was mad about me not getting a gift. So I said, "I guess you are mad at me for not getting your son a gift. " Her response was, "No I'm mad because you are a shitty friend." So without thinking I said...."Oh I'm such a shitty friend, but I get you a free gym membership, while I pay for mine."

So I guess my stupid mouth get's me in trouble and when talking to my friend about the troubles in my relationship with my girlfriend I asked her to be blunt with me about things....so she tells me i need to be considerate of others feelings and to give without expecting back...It is true although I don't expect anything back typically when I do need something I do take it personal and get upset cause the person doesnt offer any help or support when I need it.